(no subject)
wallofpixies
 I think I have a dopamine deficiency. It would make sense in so many ways.

(no subject)
wallofpixies
I really am sick of explaining myself. I thought it was evident in my actions. I guess the way I read people and the way other people read people doesn't coincide. I've done a lot of things I regret, but at the same time if I didn't do them I couldn't regret them. I guess that doesn't make sense. To me it does. Anyway there is no use in worrying about things you can't change. If you don't want me then don't have me. I'm stuck with me so I'll find ways to want me. It's funny because its all based on other peoples perception of the situation. Generally. It's not what does it matter to me, but how will this affect peoples' view of me. After all identity is based on mirror images. Point is - Fuck it. I have homework.

(no subject)
wallofpixies
 Its kind of interesting noting the differences between my inebriation and other peoples. When I distance myself from my general view of the world (sober) as I'm doing right now, I tend to think about social relations happening around me. Its so funny all of the nuances that are so acculturated we dont even notice. Like this guy was telling this story and he was describing this person by appearance traits that signify a culture or subculture and not physical features that could be associated with any type of culture. It's just another example of how deeply ingrained stereotypes are in our society. Anyway I cant type anymore. 

(no subject)
wallofpixies
 my mom got a rooster i guess. 

(no subject)
wallofpixies
I've been lacking sleep. I don't have a job. I don't have a phone. I haven't had a phone for two days and I feel like I've been missing important life cues that would project me forward. So reluctantly, inevitably, I'm stuck. My room is a mess, my head is a mess, I think I should get a planner. I need money. I need a job. I need a phone. I need sleep. 
I have class in a couple minutes. It's significantly less interesting since I found out my professor is gay and now I can't fantasize about him properly. ah well. I'll find something to daydream about, no doubt.  I'm supposed to go to a show in a genre that I'm not familiar with.... but I mean- oh wait. rap. I could do that. But I don't want to go alone. hm.. anyways I'm out.

(no subject)
wallofpixies
SO FUCK. FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. Bad day. 

(no subject)
wallofpixies
 I smell like lavender. "why do I smile at people I'd much rather kick in the eye?" 

(no subject)
wallofpixies
 I am really liking julie london right now. I wish we had internet so I could listen to her all the time. I could go to the record store but that requires a lot of walking after work and I'll probably be too lazy. we'll see. I need new headphones. Mother fucking asshole baristas I'm trying to listen to lounge music and your playing your shit indie shit. FUCK YOU! I need new headphones. Oh man French lounge music especially. fucking orgasmic. Alright I'll have to go to the record store later. Man I really don't want to go to work. 

(no subject)
wallofpixies
 yesterday a blind man told me to smile. tomorrow ill be 60. man I wonder what Ill be like when Im 60. I wonder what Ill be like when Im 22 or 18 or 16 or 10. My teeth are going to rot and linger until they fall out with pieces of blood clinging to the inside. the span of my life will come out my mouth in drops of blood starting violent crimson and ending brown and crusty on a factory carpet. a bloody rainbow trailing from my rotted mouth. then 20 cats will come and start licking the pools of blood because itd be gross. and sometimes cats like grossing people out. 

(no subject)
wallofpixies
So I'm finishing up this paper for this class and I'm sick of writing it and I really don't want to be here anymore. AND ITS RAINING! I'm so tired. My roommate snores too much. thank god I won't have to deal with that anymore. So the one thing I'll miss about this school is the free massages. That's about it though. I didn't tell the lady that gives me massages that I'm transferring. I just figured it'd be easier not to tell her. I should finish this paper.. two more finals still. 

?

Log in